i might love you forever but i will never need you

i somehow acquired many friends who travel. constantly. home, gone, home, gone gone gone. some that live here, some that don't. sometimes it doesn't matter because i see them just the same. it's ironic sort of as i am always home sick. i can't be in the moment. i am always thinking about the past or the future, missing things or people or places. time is just passing by me. i am working on changing this, i want to be here now. it's an exhausting way to be. whenever i leave, which is much more rare that it used to be i just want to be home. it took me a long time to feel like seattle was home, i guess it is still sort of happening. i am home sick for california constantly, for growing up, for memories, for the care-free sort of girl i was when i lived there. and these friends who are gone just want to be home, and when they are home they want to be gone. i have felt this way for years without really going anywhere. why is it always better when it's not what we have? i just want an anchor.

you only want what you can't have

superfriends

annie commissioned me to paint a picture of her and cory for his birthday. they are both offically cut off as they now each own too many of my paintings. it's very flattering but i don't want them to get sick of me.

happy birthday buddy! <3
halo took these polaroids of me and vanj when she was here. i like how they turned out.

and then little mister pouty face didn't want to get in front of the camera.

we could have made it

darlings

halo has a new look

it's called " i got lice at summer camp and all i got was my hair shaved off"

he's working it even though he was pretty bummed at first
he is also quickly becoming a chess master
all smiles cuz he won

and then the one and only evangeline nichols came up from portland so i could give her birthday love!

i have known her since i was 12 years old and will know her forever

happy birthday wifey!

i feel just like a child

these are some oldies of when my baby was more babyish. he is growing too fast. is there a magic potion to slow that down? please advise.

sit still

click to make her biggggggg

i'm yours and you are mine

saturday was spent exploring

we had our usual swim lessons in the morning and then off to a new ballard restaurant/bar that hasn't opened yet, but when it does i am not leaving my neighborhood

after we walked around and halo picked flowers and named them

the clouds would block out the sun off and on and you could feel summer ending. bummer.

but there is so much to be lucky for

maybe next time we'll do better

help me to help you

dear summer,

please please please get it together. i know it's hard to figure it out sometimes and get level but come on. you cannot be all rainy and grey every other day and espesh on the weekends. you are what makes living in seattle so worth it. when it's grey for one million days straight and then we get three straight months of sunshine and the whole city freaks out it rules the hardest. but these past couple months you have been so wishy washy. seriously this is my final plea. don't make me break up with you.

kisses,
n

i don't care if forever never comes

art show at nuemos happened on wednesday night

mirvis came all the way from new york and surprised me. i couldn't believe my eyes.

reunited and it feels so good.

erin and shea are in love.

wingman was the dj.

cory contributing to his nasty art habit and lovely laurie of ghost gallery who made it all happen.

winks


my sister and puncle



the show is up through all of august, there are 4 left that are for sale.
thank you thank you thank you to everyone who came out, and to everyone who bought something! you are all lovely!